Restart my Blog

Time fly so fast. I haven't been blogging for years. Too many things happened, life changed but we moved on. In 2015, bibik Tini decided to left us for good. Dengan tekanan kerja dan tanggungjawab jaga my sick abah, i decided to quit my job. I cant be a superwoman. Thanks to Hadri Harris nama yang aku akan ingat sampai bila yang mengubah hidup aku daripada seorng yg sgt komitted dgn kerja sehingga sanggup berhenti kerja and become a housewife. Luckily I was offered as part time trainer with MGTC that help me to sustain financially. 2016, I decided to further my study in Environmental Management in UKM. Such a happy life being a student again. 2017,  Abah left us forever. He passed away after 2 days in coma. Abah tenang2 sahaja di sana ye. Lin akan jaga Yaya dan Ariff . My promise. I started working with IGTC. Hell no to this place. I quit after one year. 2018, I quit IGTC and offered to work as part time trainer with MySheqa. Alhamdulillah Allah has given me so much of rahmatNya. 2019, we finally moved to Seremban for good. I found no peace in Bangi, having constant argument with mama and Bahenol were such a pain in a ass. Meon was offered to further his study in Seremban, which made my decision easier. With heavy heart I left mama and Ariff  and yaya despite my proise to arwah abah. Hope they will be in Boboy's good hand. 3 months later, Ariff and yaya was caught frauding mama's bank acc. They, they mama and whoever responsible cannot took care of the kids. I cannot stop blaming them for their negligence. Ariff finally move in with us in Seremban after raya. Ariff you were meant to be my son and I promise as long as I life I shall take good care of you. I finally completed my Masters. Alhamdulillah.

The last post was in 2013, how long was it that I haven't been blogging? Nearly 6 years dah weh.  I was occupied with other things and FB and IG were the easiest way to update my story. Suddenly I decided to restart blogging when I realise that me not getting any younger and documenting my life story is a good way to share with my love ones on the journey of my life. It will keep reminding me to become a better person. I am approaching 44 in a few days time. With little time left, let me change my life focus now more towards akhirat.

Deko rumah 2

Susah nak kontrol bila kemaruk mendeko rumah. Orang dapat bonus raya abish buat persiapan raya. Aku perabis kat barang rumah. Last week dgn semangat aku seret papa dan Ayip ke Ikea. Pkl 10am kite tibe msh lengang. Maklum la minggu raya org sebuk beraya, yang aku pulak sebuk beraya kat Ikea. Tapi best lah shopping time2 mcm ni, rasa aman je..kalau tidak sebut je Ikea dah rasa ngeri nak pergi sbb sesak sangat. So jomm tgk ape je yg aku beli smp habis RM400 hari tu.

Mula2 jom layan deko bilik tidur tetamu kami yg simple ni.

Sebenarnye untuk guest room ni aku mengidam nak buat konsep pink. Aku bukanlah suke kaler pink yg girlie2. Tapi masa aku dok carik idea nak deco rasa cam sweet pulak kaler pink. dok berangan nak cat feature wall pink tapi utk masa ni tak de kelapangan lagi nak ngecat. So mana yg dpt aku pink kan itu la yg aku buat dulu.
Dalam bilik ni mostly nye barang2 dr IKEA. Yang bukan IKEA adalah katil dan karpet pink. Katil tu aku beli kat kedai perabot di Seremban dgn harga RM350 dgn tilam rubbber foam RM300. Karpet tu aku beli kat Nilai 3 harga RM50. Murah ke? Itupun gigih lepas raya aku ajak papa g carik karpet. Aku minat quilt cover set ikea 100% cotton tu sbb nampak so sweet kaler pink jugaklah kan. Tu pun beli masa offer dptlah harga RM90. Cume yg tak besh thread count dia tak byk. Tapi hati dah berkenan so aku rembat je lah.

Jom kita layan lak deko living room aku yang telah di update dengan hiasan dinding ayat quran yang aku rembat dr Nilai 3. Sesuai dgn konsep dan citarasa aku dan papa yg simple , akhirnye aku jumpa gak yg menepati taste aku. Jom layan gamba dulu.

Living room dengan ruang terhad perlu susun atur yang sesuai dan tak boleh byk perabot. Sbb tu aku pilih kaler langsir yang cerah. Teringin sgt nak tuko langsir gaya eyelet pulak lepas ni.

Ayat Kursi bling2 sgt cantik dr Nilai 3. Lepas puas tawar menawar ku dapat satu set for RM110.  Coffee table from IKEA dgn table top tampered glass mmg sesuai utk ruang yg sempit supaya nampak lebih luas.

Lampu chandilier dari Nilai 3 hanya RM99 je. Kerusi telo hadiah dari mama pun dibeli di Nilai3. String curtain pun dari Nilai 3 dibeli dgn harga RM20 satu. Untuk divider living room dgn kitchen aku lapiskan 2 supaya nampak lebih tebal.

Teman tapi mesra ke jinjang pelamin

Teman tapi mesra..eii gedik je bunyiknye. But that was how my relation with my husband started.
The best part of this type of relationship is..no string attached, no comitment. Just go with the flow. Masalah cemburu tak timbul sbb kita same2 tahu that kite takde expect nak go further. At the same time we enjoy each other companion.

He was my buddy or to be exact my shoulder to cry on, my laypark buddy when i was bored with life. I loved to be around him, he made me feel very comfortable and just be myself. So tak timbul masalah nak control cun or sopan when he was around. Aku blh gelak kuat2..or even korek idong depan dia..the only thing of course i didnt do was kentot kuat2 depan dia kot..masa tu mmg the most happening era of my life walaupun masa tu aku tgh recovering drp grieving mati suami. After a while kite rasa mcm ada chemistry and we became closer and he started bg hint nak move one step forward. Masa tu arwah hasben aku baru abt 1 yr passed away of course aku pun blm smp mood nak jadik bini orang lagi. Lagipun idup bujang masa tu tersgt la seronoknye. Enjoy gilers..hari2 aku kuwa lepak dgn meon and the geng..kalau tak dengan geng pun dgn meon berdua. Selalunya pkl 2-3 pg baru balik rumah. Tak de sape nak sound aku. Mama dgn abah pun agaknye tak kuasa nak sound aku sbb dah tua bangka weii. so off course la aku pun belum ready nak start over. Rasa serik jugak dengan pengalaman lalu. Family meon pun x brp suke meon kawin dgn aku especially mak mmg menetang habis2an. Maunye dia nak bermenantukan aku yg dah seken hand 1sedangkan anak dia bujang, dah tu aku lagi tua dr anak dia. To cut the story short Allah telah memudahkan segalanye dan dia telah mentakdirkan inilah jodoh kedua aku dan Insyallah dia lah suami aku hingga ke syurga.
Jadi tips utk yang menghadapi situasi mcm aku simple jerk; serahkan semua pada Allah. Jgn lupa solat istikarah moga Allah bantu kita buat keputusan. Ramai yg nak kawin buat solat hajat saje supaya smpkan hajat nak kawin dengan si polan2. Seeloknya kita solat hajat supaya Allah permudahkan urusan kita sekiranya mmg itu jodih kita.

I am IKEA freak

Deko rumah kami masih on going..maklum masuk rumah baru bukan skit duit keluar. In our case reno je ade dekat RM25 k. Tu pun takat buat KC tuka tiles living room and toilet master dan tiles porch. Tu belum lagi masuk furniture aku yg mostlynye aku borong kat IKEA. Total kos furnitire IKEA semuanya tak de la byk sgt dlm RM5 K jek. Mmg dr dulu minat deco gaya modern dan simple so i guess IKEA suit my taste. Syoknye bila ada rumah sdr boleh curahkan kreativi menghias rumah. Selama ni dok tgk orng je hias rumah..kali ni aku try sdr.

Rumah aku kecik je, teres setingkat. Mmg dari dulu nak rumah setingkat memandangkan keadaan kesihatan yg tak brp mengizinkan. Konsep rumah aku is simple modern and praktikal. Ce tgk gambo kat atas ni..sempoi je kan..takde la over or in short less is more. Aku mmg seorng hygine freak. So harus aku pastikan rumah aku germ and dust free. Bila skit perabot mudah la aku nak sapu dan mop lantai. Karpet dgn kerusi telur tu aku beli kat nilai 3. Yang lain2 tu sume dr IKEA.

Master bedroom pun simple aje. Takde perabot mewah, just IKEA jugak. Since this is our weken house, kami x perlu wardrobe besau. Nanti bila dah permenant duk sini baru install wardrobe built-in.
What i love abt the hs is the kitchen area is bigger sbb dia combine dining dan kitchen. So nampak la kitchen tu luas while keeping the living room kecit comel easy to manage sbb x perlu letak byk perabot. Tapi aku xde wet kitchen or dry kitchen. As practical as it is..1 kitchen je. So aku kena rajin make sure kitchen aku sentiasa comey.

Mak oh..mak..

Aku bukan lah menantu pilihan ibu mertua...aku yakin semua ibu mahu yang terbaik untuk anaknya dan dalam hal ini mak mahu suami sebagai anak sulong yang disayangi beristeri wanita sesempurna mungkin. Aku sedar status diri ku terdahulu dan tidak pula aku pernah terfikir akan menjadi isteri kepada anak Mak. Namun  Pada ku suami ku adalah anugerah yang dikurniakan Allah untuk menemani hidup ku, lantas aku terima dengan penuh kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga.

Tidak mudah untuk memenangi hati mak di awal perkahwinan kami. Bukan hanya mak, malah seluruh keluarga suami seolah-olah memandang rendah status ku sebagai seorng balu. Padahal zaman moden ni mak tak tau saham janda lagi tinggi dari anak dara. Tengok aje kat opis aku ni, anak dara ramai ramai yg tak kawin2 lagi, sedangkan aku dah 2 kali kawin.
Tapi mmg prinsip aku, just be myself and finally mak boleh terima aku. Mak mmg mertua yg baik. Setiap kali balik kg, cakap aje nak makan ape sure mak sediakan. Mak pun senang dengan aku. Orang kata mudah la nak ngam. Kalau idak takde la mak suke sgt bertandang di rumah kami di Seremban setiap kelapangan kami ke Seremban.

So tips untuk menjaga hati mertua:

• Jgn sombong walaupun belaja tinggi
• Rajin2 la tolong dia ke dapur bila perlu jgn pulak berlagak diva walaupun aku ni city gurl hockay
• Kalau outstesen tu bawak la balik pe yang patut tanda ingatan
• Beramah mesra dan amik berat pasal mak pak mentua
• Merendah diri dan jgn berlagak kekwat dgn family mentu
• Banyakkan berdoa semoga kita disenangi oleh orang disekeliling

Senang je kan!

Abah, kaki dan hikmah

Pelik pulak rasa title entry ni. But the point is my father, who is actually diabetic suddenly fell down and fractured his leg. Unhealed for more than a month and finally the doctor decided to remove his leg to avoid any complications later. When i said remove as if his leg is detachable pulak kan. So should i say amputate as a better medical term to describe the removal of his leg?

That is one side of the story...
Suke ingatkan diri supaya look into this in a positive manner. Allah tdk akan menguji kita dgn ujian yg tdk dpt kita tanggung. At least it is a relief to see that abah stays positive and strong facing this ujian Allah. Despite of my family differences we are still united for one common goal to see abah recover and back on his feet. Setiap yg terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya. In this case, if you ask me... i am glad to see my brothers and sisters are back together..at least aku azmi dan anas dah tegur each other....my relation with abah was always distant since i was a kid. At least i have a chance to mend this relation and let abah know that despite my stubborness i still care and love him becos he's the only father that i have

When I Write....

Its been quite a while this blog been put to rest..

I am now re-married to my beloved "Meon" and a mother to be in a few weeks time..:)
Life has changed a lot...

Yaya and Ariff has grew up..healthier and happier..

My dad had retired and just recovered from his multiple illness, diabetics, kidney problem, and heart problem..

PTM is a history....transforming to the beast "GreenTech Corp" with so callled "new" management...I has never hated myself being in this organisation..My parents' house is now bigger and nicer.

Meon and I bought a house in Seremban. I love the location, very near to Seremban exit, shopping complex nearby, nice and quiet place..i just cant wait to move in early next year. Since I was young, I always dream of not to settle down nearby hectic Kuala Lumpur. I would like to move to somewhere more relax from this noisy and polluted city. Now I am busy planning and designing our new residence. KC, grill, furnitures, tiles are all in my list...I even get the floor plan ready! Now its a survey time, looking for best options.

In a few weeks time, my life gonna change..I am a mother, as I always want to be..

I am excited indeed eventough I know life will never be the same...having a baby means, less sleep, less rest, less sex, more patient, more leave, and more LOVE..